I run because I need to feel deeply. I don't like to spend day after day just shuffling along with the average Joes. I need depth of emotions, soulful experiences, powerful situations and deep moments of appreciation. It took me a long time to understand this....it's why I love being a nurse of folks trying to live comfortably through the last years of life. It's why I love supervising the nurses that give hard to these fascinating folks.
And I need to remind myself of that. It came back to me strong this past week. I was off one week of work to spend time with my Mom visiting from NJ, and to share the holiday meaningfully with my family. It was a great week---just quality time with those I love most dearly. But I missed my work family too. So it was rewarding getting back to work this past week.
But my running has been disappointing me. I fell off the wagon, so to speak. I forgot why I run. I've been following my wonderful Coach's training program, and I'm loving it, but I started to get very worried that I won't be able to do the Chicago Marathon under my goal of 5 hours.
So Coach Lisa had to shake me up--I got my pep talk. I remember now why I run. And I will run--for my depth of feelings will get me to do what I need to do so that I can be awash with those emotions throughout those 5 hours. Just watch me!!